[epub or Pdf] The Dangerous Art of Blending In author Angelo Surmelis – sableyes.co.uk

READ The Dangerous Art of Blending In

Iends And it’s Henry who makes him believe that he’s than his mother’s harsh words and terrifying abuse But as things with Henry heat up and his mother’s abuse escalates Evan has to decide how to find his voice in a world where he has survived so long by avoiding attention at all cost. Entertainment rating 5Reader health rating 2Settling for a 35 overallContent warnings verbal mentalemotional and physical child abuse on the page violent child abuse homophobia bullying assaultDisclaimers I m a therapist and I work in child welfare therefore child abuse is a topic I think about 8 hours a day 5 days a weekI felt very angry while reading this because of the reviews I read from other reviewers The abusive mother is this novel does not have a mental health diagnosis Blaming mental illness for child abuse is denial and ignorance People choose to abuse others Abuse is not something that your brain chemistry forces you to perform Can some individuals diagnosed with a mental health disorder also be abusive Sure But those parts of them are unrelated We could argue about personality disorders but then we d just be getting technical and we would not focusing on what really matters here not perpetuating abusive behaviorWhy I Recommend Bumping This DOWN On Your TBRIs this kind of reading experience necessary Is it okay for us to be reading to be entertained by a story of someone being abused Was this informative enough to excuse using abuse as a plot device I don t think that this was informative enough I don t think that this would help an abused child feel validated or know how to reach out for help This is of a memoir turned into fiction I also don t think this should be marketed towards young adults if only because I don t feel like it would benefit a young readerWhy You Might Bump This Up On Your TBRI should mention that the protagonist is gay and in love and that I enjoyed the writing style very much and couldn t put this work down This is a believable portrayal of what it s like to grow up being physically abused It was so believable that it was angering to watch all of the other people observing Evan from the sidelines and not doing anything to help him including his father and pastor I appreciated that the author included hotlines and resources at the end The way that the author slowly moved the story forward kept me in a mental and emotional anguish and I give the author credit for creating that experience for the reader While I appreciate that this topic was covered I don t envision this opening the eyes of a reader who has never learned about child abuse before and that s what I would have wanted it to do

SUMMARY ´ SABLEYES.CO.UK ☆ Angelo Surmelis

The Dangerous Art of Blending In

R the summer Tired isolated scared Evan’s only escape is drawing in an abandoned church that feels as lonely as he is And yes he kissed one guy over the summer But it’s his best friend Henry who’s now proving to be irresistible It’s Henry who suddenly seems interested in being than fr. This book was heartbreakingly sad and the authors note just broke me It s about parental abuse coming out and finding your voice in a harsh and judgmental world Also this is a ownvoices novelHowever I didn t like how Henry kept saying I ll be the one to help you I want to be the one you trust Yikes I really didn t feel their romance either There s a lot of consent issues Henry kissed Ev without permission when he told Henry THAT HE WAS SCARED AND NOT SUREOverall it s an okay book and I liked it minus the unhealthy romance Also those descriptions of the Greek food got me hungry yum35 stars

Angelo Surmelis ☆ 1 FREE READ

Seventeen year old Evan Panos doesn’t know where he fits in His strict Greek mother refuses to see him as anything but a disappointment His uiet workaholic father is a staunch believer in avoiding any kind of conflict And his best friend Henry has somehow become distractingly attractive ove. I am not giving this review a fair introduction or summary Two things One I m slightly bothered that Evan s entire character arc is driven by romance which is shitty itself in a book about abuse Two I m bothered by the fact that the romance itself is an on fire garbage can I want to get into the romance as a character arc thing first as it s a good introduction Evan doesn t have an arc in this book beyond the messily written one he has because of Henry And obviously that s an annoyance in any book right It s a little boring But in a book about a suicidal boy trying to recover from abuse it s downright bad The most important thing in getting out of an abusive environment is a strong support system A romantic relationship itself isn t bad but it is never a good cure for abuse A relationship is not a truly healthy endeavor until some degree of inner mental recovery is already occurring Evan is not in a good place to proceed in a serious relationship when his relationship with Henry begins he is unsure of his sexuality suicidal and essentially hanging on to life by a thread He has not at all begun a recovery process even an inner one and the narrative of this book is not in my opinion cognizant of the delicacy of his situation with Harry What a person in his situation needs is a support system of people who want what is best for him and are willing to step away when he needs them to Henry is not that nor can any teenager or any one person be that This message is one not of empowerment but of romance being the cure for an abusive situation As is touched on in books like Heather Demetrios Bad Romance turning to romance as a cure for abuse can be a really simple transition to further abuse abuse survivors sometimes lack support systems necessary to leave future bad relationships true for Evan or the type of self esteem they need also very true for Evan I definitely have a penchant for getting slightly annoyed at the prevalence of cure romance tropes in books about abuse But I want to make it really clear I think romances can be done well and handled respectfully Obviously Evan were he a real life person which he is not would be in his own situation that might not conform to easy standards of healthiness And it s this fact above any other that makes this specific romance so completely disturbing why this romance feels toxic a discussion Evan is a teenager dealing with severe abuse who is still struggling with his sexuality and most importantly has no support system beyond Henry Evan has literally no support system beyond Henry no family members no caring friends not one other person who is aware of the abuse This is not inherently horrible thing Evan s situation is difficult and turning to others seems to him likely to backfire If Henry were kind and patient with Evan and allowed him space and a chance to make his own decisions that might be one thing But it is my opinion that the dynamic between Evan and Henry in this situation leaves Evan a lack of choice in proceeding with this relationship Henry who as we ve mentioned is Evan s only confidante gets angry actually physically angry at Evan multiple times during this book for well the intention might be Evan s fair weather friendship but it reads like Henry is angry at Evan for being unsure about a romantic relationship Being upset by your friend s ignorance of friendship is understandable but Henry s desire for a romantic relationship with Evan is not an acceptable reason to be angry at Evan Though the book is later very clear that Evan has wanted this relationship all along Henry has no way of knowing that As a result of this problem Henry s prioritization of his own feelings over Evan s is disturbing at best In one major scene Henry feels abandoned by Evan He responds to this by yelling at Evan for leaving him and guilting him into a romantic relationship Evan is given little agency within the scene approximately page 142 I stand there silent and in awe of this boy in front of me who is so raw trusting open This one person who has never judged me You have to say something Don t leave me out here alone and don t you dare fucking leave What That s what you do You just leave Don t do this to me Not now I m fucking putting out so much stuff and if you just pull your shit The consent issues are there and especially noting the previous issues vaguely disturbed me approximately page 99 I m staring at the statue and and I shift my body slightly away from Henry He takes the waistband of my of my sweatshirt in his hand and pulls me in a bit I put my head down still turning away He nudges himself even close and starts to slowly life the shirt over my head I feel paralyzed scared thrilled I stop him Henry Please He s close enough that I can smell the mint chip ice cream on his breath Henry whispers Ev I want to be the one that helps you feel better Using whatever willpower I can grab on to I pull away and say No This isn t what you want What I want So okay in one of the first romantic scenes of the book Henry tries to take Evan s shirt off his body and see his scars without any sort of consent even after Evan explicitly says no This is not isolated Ignoring that the earlier page 142 uote is sort of badly written it occurs one paragraph before they kiss Evan does not ever say yes to said kiss and the way it was written did not feel totally consensual to me Here s the passage approximately page 143 Instead I say I m scared Me too but also not scared He walks over to where I m standing He s now right in front of me My skin feels tingly He grabs the bottom of my shirt with both hands and pulls me close to him I stop breathing He shifts himself even closer and starts putting his hand under my shirt toward my back I feel paralyzed scared thrilled As if ice water is pumping inside my body He leans in closer I can feel his breath on my skin He whispers Ev I want to be the one you trust he leans in and kisses me full soft hard and without any hesitation Okay So Evan is actually enjoying this moment and I hate to be a buzzkill but Henry has no indication that he is enjoying this or wants this The last thing Evan has said before this first kiss is I m scared which is in reference to internalized homophobia but again Henry doesn t know that He is clearly paralyzed He has not actually said that he is attracted to Henry or that he actually wants Henry to kiss him I am a lesbian and I don t think this is great There s another scene and I would love if someone would send me the uotes because I seem to not have photographed them in which Henry sticks his hand under Evan s thigh while Henry s family is in the car and while they are on the outs something Evan and I share eual levels of discomfort around How is sticking your hand under your ex s thigh in a car with your family when your ex is not even out of the closet acceptable behavior I want to make it clear that if one of these scenes occurred and every other scene had clear consent I would not be bothered relationships and consent for stuff like kissing can be complicated But I don t know dudes it feels like there s barely any explicit consent in this relationship Almost all of their kisses are initiated by Henry and several romantic interactions are initiated when Evan s only outward expression is no As a trend in the book Henry reads like he has no respect for Evan s boundaries Another element that feels like it might be a result of bad writing but is frightening considering the context Henry has extreme mood swings and his moods and emotions seem to change on the dot In one scene he goes from smiling in one paragraph to saying he d like to hurt Evan s mom in the next approximately page 143 He turns to me smiling Where are we going I briefly glance back at him and then I look back at the road Patience In a moment I say I shouldn t believe in anything Sometimes I don t I used to pray for God to help me and that never happened but maybe that s the way it works I know what I want to do would cause pain and trouble for you Henry s voice sounds dark Henry is in fact referring to hurting Evan s abusive mom which okay but this is a huge mood swing and making something all about himself Henry is also as I think this paragraph exemplifies to some degree sort of angry and threatening towards people hurting Evan due to knowing Evan is in a physically abusive situation And I want to be careful with this because like mood Henry But in most cases telling someone you want to kill their mom is not an actually good way to handle abuse Henry says he wants to hurt or kill Evan s mom multiple times to a point where Evan feels the need to talk him down and it feels bad talking down your partner from anger all the time is not healthy I also just dislike the way Henry frames himself within this relationship approximately page 99 Evan he whispers I want to be the one that makes you feel better approximately page 143 Ev I want to be the one you trust The repetition of this reads like Henry wants this relationship because he wants to be the one who makes Evan feel better This feels like isolation This IS a book by an actual survivor of abuse and I absolutely respect that he was able to tell this story And aside from the scenes between Evan and Henry I don t think this book was completely horrid The scene with the priest and Evan is powerful a few scenes in which Evan s mom is nice to him after weeks of horrifying comments are scarily accurate to experiences I ve had Beyond that it is so valuable to have books about ueer and lgbt abuse survivors in our culture today and it s arguably revolutionary we have any Whether you re reading this or not I d really recommend reading some great books about lgbt abuse survivors I m a fan of Ashley Herring Blake s How to Make a Wish an ownvoices book featuring a bi lead and sapphic romance and Alice Oseman s Radio Silence by a bisexual author and featuring a gay lead and mlm romance That our stories even have a chance to be published is amazing But I just can t recommend this in good conscience Blog Goodreads Twitter Youtube

10 thoughts on “The Dangerous Art of Blending In

  1. says:

    I am not giving this review a fair introduction or summary Two things One I'm slightly bothered that Evan’s entire character arc is driven by romance which is shitty itself in a book about abuse Two I'm bothered by the fact that the romance itself is an on fire garbage can I want to get into the romance as a character arc thing first as it’s a good introduction Evan doesn’t have an arc in this book beyo

  2. says:

    Oh wow this was both heartbreaking and hopeful and brutal I knew it was going to be an emotional one but afjdsakfld the ending basically had me feeling at least 4 things all at once which is RIDICULOUS as I am a Vulcan and emotion as bread It's full of art and abuse and hiding who you truly are and the absolute craving of love So

  3. says:

    I spent the entire afternoon reading this and it really broke my heart This book is brutal and devastating This book is definitely not for everyone and you can see that by looking through some of the other reviews but it spoke to me and made me feel deeply

  4. says:

    Here's the deal about never being authentically loved by your parents The most fucked up gesture or morsel of compassion is like a warm blanketI haven't made my mind up completely about this book One the one hand it is a truthful and painful novel that makes it hard for you to swallow On the other hand it feels like big chunks of c

  5. says:

    This book was heartbreakingly sad and the authors note just broke me It's about parental abuse coming out and finding your voice in a harsh and judgmental world Also this is a #ownvoices novelHowever I didn't like how Henry kept saying I'll be the one to help you I want to be the one you trust Yikes I really didn't feel their romance eithe

  6. says:

    Many thanks to HarperTeen for sending me a copy in exchange for an honest reviewI both loved and hated this I think that this type of story needs to be shared so as to stop others like it from happening That said it always breaks my heart to see young people albeit fictional people being abused and harmed in this way I j

  7. says:

    Such a beautiful book My full review will be up on my booktube channel at

  8. says:

    This story is heartbreaking and sad This story deals with some heavy issues such as physical and mental abuse suicide and coming out This coming of age book deals with Evan who comes home from camp confused about his sexuality and what he wants in life Evan's mother is a strict immigrant greek mother who wants him to be a good christian boy Evan feels like he has no support from his family or from his friends This story tugged at my heart

  9. says:

    Entertainment rating 5Reader health rating 2Settling for a 35 overall?Content warnings verbal mentalemotional and physical child abuse; on the page violent child abuse homophobia bullying assaultDisclaimers I'm a therapist and I work in chil

  10. says:

    I desperately wanted to love this book and I’m actually wondering if 3 stars is too high of a rating First off major trigger warnings for physical and mental abuse as well as homophobia I couldn’t connect with Evan He seems like a good guy

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *